For the past few days, Nolan has been especially difficult to get to sleep.  He is sleepy but he stands in his crib and sobs, cries, screams, gasps.  It sounds like he is about to make himself sick.  That is what he is doing right now.  It makes me so sad.  Why won’t he just go to sleep?  He is so tired.  I can’t do anything for him.  I have tried nursing him, rocking him, cuddling him.  No help.  And it doesn’t help that he doesn’t have a soothing method like most kids (i.e. passie, blankie, etc).  I wish he did.  Life would not be so sad right at this moment.  I just sit here and think about how he is thinking that I don’t love him and that I don’t want to come and help him.  It’s so rough to be a baby.  And a mommy at times.